♫ Nuruuul (=
i tend to be serious at times,
non-serious most of the times.

Affiliates:

Huda Syaza Amalina Sharmila Fina Said Yati Farhan Firr Haikal PCC Nadia J Syuk Saifud Alam Jack Wankie Naqqy Hafiz Syazani Aaz Khairul Imran Elly Dy Mai Maiss Haikal Ain Dian The Every Sunday Classes

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have i told you i used to have a Birdie?
i love working at PCC more than ever
i like riding cause its fun fun.
i prefer to listen to what my heart told me so than listening to other ppl talkings
in other words im stubborn.
but most of the decisions i made is always the wrong one
im unusually PMS at the wrong time
i scold people for no reasons.
but deep inside im soft-hearted.
its true!
other than that
i love my brotherlurps more than ever
also not forgetting my girlfriends
and my family too
i hate accounting more than ever
which sucks and bores me to death.
im in love with cristiano ronaldo.
*drooling*
that soccer hottie from Portugal.
he rocks! woohooo!
i like to hang around basically
anywhere if u wanna bring me
i used to play soccer & netball,
but now, pancit!
i love durians.
im always craving for durians!
and last but not least, i love my Birdie alot!

Singlehood life is fun,
To be attached in a serious relationship is great.
"Love one another and you will be happy. It's as simple and as difficult as that."

Tuesday, May 30, 200611:36 am i will be stong no matter what.
im going to go against all odds because im hating you now.
ohh yeah. i forget. i dun even wanna waste my own hatred feelings for you.
u cheated on me
u betrayed me.
u jerk
im not longer in love with you
dun worry. i wont hate you
its just a waste of my feelings.
i have other better things to do than mopping around for you.
ur not the only chicken in the farm
i can find others much better than you.
fcuk you . Monday, May 29, 200611:34 pm today is a bad luck day. but i hope its not gonna spoilt my day for tml. here is it. i rushed quickly to airport ydae cus pau just told me that they'll be going off this evening. and i quickly went dere to meet her and also khidhir. bought some sweet stuff for them. make frens with pau's bmc frens. then, khidhir was in front of me. i tapped him from behind. say hello to him. guess what ? he just look at me, then turned back and continue with his own doings. okay. i just dun think too much about it. we din even talk with other all the way. then he and pau are soon departing, followed them. again, when im going off, i tapped him again and say bye. he does the same thing again! look at me and continue back with his work. fcuk la. i felt so betrayed by him. he had this hatred, cold look in his eyes. and i just walk away quickly and went back home.

i should have just went straight back home jus now. i even left my own bike at sch till tml just because i wanted to meet you. and im currently having fever since ydae. yet u dun seem to appreciate me. its okay. i understand if u hate me because of the past. but i thot we had oredi forgive and forget ? why are u killing my heart again and again ? i felt so betrayed by you. im so hurt by you. never will i ever talk to you anymore. i wont contact you anymore. i have oredi deleted your no. hope you have a fun holidays at brisbane. and i wish u a happy life onwards. dun worry. i wont be there for you anymore. i wil really let go of you from now on. i hate you. forget whatever happens between us. you and i have nothing else more to do with each other. everything is gone.

huda is right. i should have moved on long long time ago. but yet im still sticking and clinging on to him. now he had completely ruined me. but im still staying strong. i will never let anyone walk over my life. god. help me pls. -crying- pls help me. i needed someone else in my life. Thursday, May 25, 20065:05 pm think im changing the view of myself. now, im hanging out with like 3 groups. the first is BIG group. hang out with them during lessons. 2nd is fiza n finah. hang out with them during break time. n 3rd is matus n da other changkatians. meet them sometimes after sch. i din realised my big groupies would have notice whenever i went break with finah n fizah. but they did! awww. hehe. yahh. life is okay for now. except that my mom thought im always going back home late because im having a bgr and she's always nagging and finding faults at me. bleahhh. as if i even had time for a bf. all this time im only schooling and studying and working. wth. and i dun even like any guys in my sch! they are cute and i just love them like an eyecandy. hahah. but i totally forgotten about all boys when i reached home. haiz. dunno why. maybe im still hurt by khidhir. i miss him. no matter what nothing can replace him. arghhh


fcuk that bloody anwar. fish him laa. he's now soo fucking arrogant. if i ever met him, i will smack his bloody face and fcuk him upside down. bcos of him, me and khidhir became like this. mothafucker. i swear i will never ever contact you for the rest of my life. until you came crawling back to me and say for forgiveness. bloody hell. u are such a cowardy bastard! u told fake lies to me saying khidhir had anotehr gf all that whereas he dun even had. u freaking bastard. dun ever let me see you. i will strangle you to death. Sunday, May 21, 20061:32 pm some things abt me.
-im shy
-quiet
-innocent
-always love to smile
-dun talk much when not neccessary
-not outspoken
- no longer the leader
-not outgoing

yeahh. thats what i have become in my new campus right now.
i duno why. im already changed. seriously, i dun think i am able to blend well with my frens.
dun get me wrong. they're nice all dat. but i just couldnt fit myself in. maybe all i needed is time now. hopefully. (: Thursday, May 18, 20069:45 am im in lecture room right now. so happy. so happy. my baby called me. i was having lessons ydae. but who cares abt my lecturer. i know i can at least hear his voice. (: . he's so different already. but he's still the same old khidhir. who loves making me jealous and i love making him jealous. haha. talk n talk for about an hour. update him with my life. and he update me with his. haiz. i want my dearie backkk!! then we finally put down since he wanna go and have his lunch. i miss him alot. im missing him now. hearing the song saving me-nickelback. reminds me of him. after sch, acc. firah go to her mly dance. i make my frens surprised! (; after that, accompany rita to wait for her fren. we were talking abt alot of things. she was surprised by my past . HAHA. gtg for my bfd class now. BYE. Friday, May 12, 20068:50 am blogging in in the early of the day.
ydae was fun. sch was fun too. we were waiting at the stadium dere for our sports and wellness activity. while waiting, one of my malay girl classmate switch on her mp3 speaker to the maximum volume and all of us were starting to sing the song 'permaisuri'. HAHA. im starting to like that song now. bcos of them la!! haha. so funny so funny. we keep on changing songs and the whole class were singing so loudly at the stadium. the other classes whom were having thier sw too also turn their heads to look at us. LOL! after that went to jb with my parents and relatives. eat kfc for my lunch. then do some shopping. then have our dinner again at a reastaurant which was allocated on top of the sea. soo cool. while on the way home, i gave khidhir a missed call. then msg-ed him. baby khidhir replied it back to me by giving me a missed call too. =D.
dun mind me. i dun even know what am i so happy about this. haha. going work at 3 later. maybe im sleeping again after blogging. bleahh. Tuesday, May 09, 200612:32 am yay! i bought a mp4 by my own money from my salary! haha.
so happy. so happy. then i bought a thumbdrive. went back home at ard 9+. as soon i as reached home, i was like mad person. do research all the way. currently talking to huda now. hmm. guess im done with my research project for now. bleahhh. my shoulders are aching all over. arghhhh.ohh yeahh. saw abdillah jus now at cafe1. he's with his grp of guy fren. and one of them is sooo HOT! haha. i finally found an eyecandy in sch! haha =D Sunday, May 07, 20061:25 pm ok. i shall blame siti and nur about what happened ydae. we finish working at 10+. then slack at mac till midnite. and guess what? no train, no bus 12. so......... i took bus 3. but unfortunately... i took at the wrong side of the station. and i landed straight at PUNGGOL!!
arghhhhhhhh. lucky was talking to huda on the phone. so i dun breakdown. haha. cant believe i landed at another diff place sia. so took a taxi back home. and there. home sweet home. =D Thursday, May 04, 20066:03 pm yay! today is the 3rd day of sch in college east. was fun. went out in the morning. meet rafidah n cynthia. then went up to class since said, firah n gang was late stuck in the mrt! haha. then we went up to the class. saw our ofa lecturer for the first time. he released us 1 hr earlier. sooo cooooool. then the whole 7 of us went canteen slack dere. then come the rest of our classmate and all of us were like sitting together. haha. after that we went to another classrm for our bfd. i think? saw our lecturer. she's funny but too bad i was snoozing for the rest of the time. LOL. then went for a boring cid talk. went break again after that. then blah3. after sch got telematch. watch it. funny funny. but hot n humid. we were like cheering so hard. but its good that business sch won 1st for cheering and 2nd for overall! yay! haha. dats all for today. looking forward for tml. yay again. haha.(=