♫ Nuruuul (=
i tend to be serious at times,
non-serious most of the times.

Affiliates:

Huda Syaza Amalina Sharmila Fina Said Yati Farhan Firr Haikal PCC Nadia J Syuk Saifud Alam Jack Wankie Naqqy Hafiz Syazani Aaz Khairul Imran Elly Dy Mai Maiss Haikal Ain Dian The Every Sunday Classes

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have i told you i used to have a Birdie?
i love working at PCC more than ever
i like riding cause its fun fun.
i prefer to listen to what my heart told me so than listening to other ppl talkings
in other words im stubborn.
but most of the decisions i made is always the wrong one
im unusually PMS at the wrong time
i scold people for no reasons.
but deep inside im soft-hearted.
its true!
other than that
i love my brotherlurps more than ever
also not forgetting my girlfriends
and my family too
i hate accounting more than ever
which sucks and bores me to death.
im in love with cristiano ronaldo.
*drooling*
that soccer hottie from Portugal.
he rocks! woohooo!
i like to hang around basically
anywhere if u wanna bring me
i used to play soccer & netball,
but now, pancit!
i love durians.
im always craving for durians!
and last but not least, i love my Birdie alot!

Singlehood life is fun,
To be attached in a serious relationship is great.
"Love one another and you will be happy. It's as simple and as difficult as that."

Friday, August 31, 20075:34 pm


trying to avoid the camera at LJS.


My hot hot heat girlf Sonam


this is my darlingg. Sonam and Pau


today is such a BLAST!

meet up with the girlss at tamp ard 9am.
went down to ccss back with Sonam, Lina and Matus.
and we meet again with our sec1 now whom have became sec3 boys.
omg laaa.
muqaddis is so handsome, haikal is so tall, fazlee is so diff, but ashraf is still chubby and cute! haha!
and see other ex schmates. zharfan is still the same, except now dier da sombong siak. hah!
what was so unexpecting is that.....
I SAW MY SENYUM-SENYUM BOY RIGHT IN THE SCHOOL!
and i took the iniative to talk to him instead of just smiling at him.
found out he was from my school and he's 17yrs old.
but seriously, ive never seen him in my entire life before.
and he's just soo soo mysterious to me.
and suddenly now i knw he's from my sec sch and currently in ITE with me too.
how weird huh?
anyway, anyway, we did the talkings and i just cant forget how hot he look like. hee.
after that had our lunch at LJS.
then went down to tamp.
walk-walk around,
meet up with Azry and Rahim.
they used to be soo talkative last time in class,
but now they are so shy la. heh.
then we chilled at starbucks.
and i saw that starbuck butch working.
how many eyecandies can a person see in a day?
heh!


and after a long conv and jokes with them, walked back home together.
and im super tired cus i slept at 4am ydae at my cousin's hs. ((:

every little thing i do,
never seem enough for you,
you dont wanna lose it again,
but im not like them

Baby, when you finally,
get to love somebody,
guess what?
its gonna be ME. Thursday, August 23, 200710:30 pm today is the 23rd of Aug.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to KHAIRUL ANWAR! :D
may you be happy happy always, sweets.


and as for today, date my sygg out. hehe.
i was fucking late.
was supposed to be by 1pm but in the end came down at 2pm.
so sorry Sayanggg. hehe.
and so, we spent some 'study' time till 5+pm.
then i had another date with another sayang.
and im late again. hehe.
shop shop with my 2nd date.
and i bought this cardigan which cost more than its usual cost.
daylight robbery sey! GRRRR.
&& reached back home at 10pm. ((:


and this is my 2nd date. hee!
iMISSyou la!






&& I LOVE THIS CLOTHES. IM GONNA BUY IT, HOPEFULLY.
Tuesday, August 21, 20078:47 pm GAHHHH.
IMSUPERPISSEDOFF!
my stuffs were stolen from my locker.
some monkeys break down my locker and took everything off.
it look so 'neat' without any stuff inside it.
fuck whoever whom stole my stuff.
takder keje! hmmph!

&& today i went shopping!
weeeeeeeeee.
me and nor were having a super great time.
manicuring, shopping plus many many more.
bumped into some people like aizad, azri, firdaus, ilham.
errrgh, im broke right now.
ok, im lazy to elaborate about stuffs right now.


baby if you stripped,
you can get a tip,
cause i like you just the way you are. Thursday, August 16, 20079:29 pm highlight of the day:
i saw shah iskandar!
and he SMILED at me!
get it? he noticed me! wooohooo* Wednesday, August 15, 20071:38 am ive been having bad sore throat and running nose.
&& fiza called me cartoon, huda called me dolphin, and fedah called me snoopy.
thanks to my voice that is.
sheesh.

i know i haven been blogging since last week.
heh.
busy la babe. [=

here are the things that had happened.
1) august- the month of heartbreaks.
and its really true.
recently, 2 couples had broke up.
-fiza broke up with farid.
-fina broke up with syakir.
i hope my other friends will be doing fine in their relationship. (:

2)-working is fun, but seems like i have to stop working for a few weeks till my exams are over.
-zac is moving over to vivo, and some gay manager called Salleh will be replacing him.


3)said idiottically can JUMP JUMP around the house and fall down.
and now he's having some leg injuries.
you should see him walking. its super funny. heh. [=

4)i've finally cleared all my test.
and ive passed all my papers!
*woohooo*

5)its been quite a while since i havent been going out with my L-gang.
yeah, i do miss them. but it seems like we're all too busy with our own life. [=

6) im crushing on the sweet-smile boy. but of course, An is still the one i adored till now. (:

just when i thought i was over you,
i see your face and it all aint true... Tuesday, August 07, 200710:09 pm hello hello.
and so, today, ive broke my virginity of baking a cake.
woohoo*
me, syaza, and calista bake choc fudge cake.
and really, its AWESOME.
THANKS TO ME LA OF COURSE.
heh. blueek*
too bad, just too bad, im having mouth ulcer.
GRRRRRR.
and i cant eat much of it.
and i just found out cheese spread is super nice too!
and i cant stop licking it, yo. :D


anyway, anyway, i really want that ONE and ONLY person to try that cake.
thought of giving it as a surprised for her,
but too bad, everything kinda backfired.
but its okay, then. (:

&& about the cake, its really damn damn nice. heh.
but my idiottic bro says its SALTY!
of all things, how can a cake be salty?
GRRR.
but it is very nice for me. hee.
wanna try it peopleeeeeeeee? (:






and when i need you,
you're almost here,
and i know thats not enough.
and when i with you,
im close to tears,
cause you're only almost here. Sunday, August 05, 20072:22 pm Senses telling me you're looking
I can feel it on my skin
Boy I wonder what would happen
If I trip and let you in
Don't get shook my my aggression
I just might be the one
Let's skip this conversation
Just whine your body up

Cuz I'm feeling your vibing
I'm riding high is exotic
And I want you, I want you here
Pull me closer and closer and
Hold me tight to your body
I wanna feel you, I wanna feel you near

Boy keep doing what you're doing get me hot
Winding up your body you don't have to stop
My temperature is rising, want you more than before
It's an animal attraction, whine your body up

Whine up, whine up, whine up, oh yea! :D Friday, August 03, 200712:09 am when i hear your voice on the phone,
all i can do is just shivering inside.
and smiling from the outside.
i really miss hearing your laughter and it feels good hearing you talk.
and knowing you're out there happy, safe and sound.
even though the conv between us is just a shortwhile, but somehow, it will be going through my mind for quite a long time.
loves;♥ Thursday, August 02, 20074:47 pm i had a quarrel with Eddy.
ok, some of you might not know who im talking about, but only my close friends knew about this. she say she had written a letter for me but its still unsent. and suddenly she just type this all out. thru msn.

iii wANA Kiss euu..WANA KISS MEII?AKU SYG KAMU LER says:
DIS'S MAII LETTER 2 EUU

to maii dearest,assalamualaium,hyiie ape khaber di sane sume??arap2 sumenye dlm keadaan sehat walafiat..buat ii kt cni ,oyukies aje..iim sory if all these while i've not bcum gudfren or lup 2 euu..ii noe i've hurt eur feeling alot

theres nutink ii ken du but 2 change maiiself 4 gud...dah lame sangat hidop cam gini tapy akhirnye menyesal berkali2..jgn uat bende2 yg tk bagos kt luar..

maseh dpean lagy penting..dun b stresed if ppl owes scold euu..ini sume dugaan! ii dun wan 2 c euu getting into troubelz or outside ladies..skrg ni baru ii rase nye btol kesal..hari2 nangis biler teringatkn knper ler ii bodo sangat..

but wadever happen in e past ii should learnt from it..theres many thing ii wan 2 do bt iim going 2 take 1 step at a tyme..ii dun wan 2 repeat maii mistake lyke jus now n ii tk sanggup nk tgk euu mrh kt ii sume

ii realli nid 2 do sumthing different in maii lyfe..da cukup org2 sume pandang hina kt ii...ii tk kesah org nk ckp ape lagy..wad ii noe dae i wan n willing 2 change maii attitue...b gudgerl oyukiess...ii ken ssee dat euu haf change alot..ii realli miss euu so much..euu're going 2 nineteen sso must behave lyke a mature teenager....dun behave lyke a kid..b smart in doing n choosing sumthing in lyfe..

ii realli hope dat 1dae ii will lup euu n ii hope we will haf a proper relationships..its oyukis going 2 take such a long tyme bt ii believe 1 dae things ken happen..

eeuu're stiill young theres many thing 4 euu 2 du ur future.....no matter wad.. ii still lup euu....meii mmg btol2 nk wait fer euu..bt euu sae dun nid 2 wait fer euu..iisiit dats maii fault..wadever is dis..euu tc urself k...


*dangggg!
i really pitied her, but i just cant tell it to her that i dont even like her.
and currently, all im doing right now is just avoiding and not replying to her conversations. 2:38 am have you ever seen a loner walking alone all day through sch all outside without any friends?
do you feel the loneliness they are feeling?
or what had gone wrong and thats why they were left alone?
its really sad to see them being a loner.
nobody wants to be that way.
what would we feel if we were in their shoes?

and i now, i have a confession to make.
last time i was an evil and bad person.
believe me.
i took away the happiness of my own close friend.
i took away the bonds and friendship she had with others.
and i shut the door of socializing for her and till now, i think she can still feel the pain of it.

it all happens two years ago.
somehow, when im with my clique of friends,
i always seem to be the one making decision for them.
and they will always agree to it.
ive always been the centre of attention in them.
and thats what makes me become arrogant and big-headed.

and once i quarrelled with this particular friend in my clique.
she is a close friend of mine once.
it was a very bad quarrelled, whats more with other parties,
some influencing me tell me of diff kinda stories of how bad is she and etc.
and partly, also, i admit, i was jealous of her before.
because to me, she's pretty.
and because of all that rumours and stuffs,
i made her become a 'villain'.
everyone of my cliques hated her.
therefore, we left her being a loner everytime.

i know it really hit hard on her.
her granny just past away sometime on that year,
all of us were sitting for our Os,
and i make it hard for her like as if 'life is a hell'.
ever since then we had severed our friendship.
when we see each other, all we do is just act like strangers.
at first i was happy seeing all that.
(gosh, can u believe how bad am i?)
but soon, after that year,
i did try to do some talkings to her on msn.
there is some awkwardness, but maybe we pretend as if nothg happened.
sometime this year when i meet up with her,
i was secretly shocked.
she totally looked like she's a lost girl without confidence,
a girl whos been badly hurt emotionally and physically,
a girl whos happiness been taken away in a split seconds,
a girl without anyone to trust with.

and thats when i realised ive make a greatest mistake.
ive done so many sins within 2yrs by doing all that to her,
and up till now, she's still affected by it.
ive realised, regret and learnt about it.
because of that, i hate seeing friends backstabing each other,
or avoiding them.
all of you just pretend we're in their shoes, it sucks for us too right?
my friend has really make me learn about how precious friendship and love is;
and what a big and kind heart she has.
because after everything that has happened, we're still friends.
but up till these days, i still regretted everything that has happened.
it makes me feel very bad and its even harder to believe, im so cruel.
i do had a blackiest heart somehow.
and its hard for me to forgive myself either, for whatever happened to you,
because i knew its all because of me and my attitude.

from the bottom of my heart, i thank you for everything you had done,
and i truly apologise for everything i done since the last 2yrs,
take care and be happy always, friend,
SHARMILA BTE JAMALUDDIN. ((: