♫ Nuruuul (=
i tend to be serious at times,
non-serious most of the times.

Affiliates:

Huda Syaza Amalina Sharmila Fina Said Yati Farhan Firr Haikal PCC Nadia J Syuk Saifud Alam Jack Wankie Naqqy Hafiz Syazani Aaz Khairul Imran Elly Dy Mai Maiss Haikal Ain Dian The Every Sunday Classes

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♥
have i told you i used to have a Birdie?
i love working at PCC more than ever
i like riding cause its fun fun.
i prefer to listen to what my heart told me so than listening to other ppl talkings
in other words im stubborn.
but most of the decisions i made is always the wrong one
im unusually PMS at the wrong time
i scold people for no reasons.
but deep inside im soft-hearted.
its true!
other than that
i love my brotherlurps more than ever
also not forgetting my girlfriends
and my family too
i hate accounting more than ever
which sucks and bores me to death.
im in love with cristiano ronaldo.
*drooling*
that soccer hottie from Portugal.
he rocks! woohooo!
i like to hang around basically
anywhere if u wanna bring me
i used to play soccer & netball,
but now, pancit!
i love durians.
im always craving for durians!
and last but not least, i love my Birdie alot!

Singlehood life is fun,
To be attached in a serious relationship is great.
"Love one another and you will be happy. It's as simple and as difficult as that."

Sunday, May 27, 20079:25 pm ohoh, thanks to Said. ppl, watch this vid. my classmate, Azri is singing.
he's always been singing in class, but ive never seen him with guitar.
so here it is.(=






You can run into my arms
It's okay don't be alarmed
Come into me
There's no distance in between our love
So go on and let the rain pour
I'll be all you need and more
Because

When there’s sunshine, we’ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella


with you, i'll always share. Friday, May 25, 20074:20 pm this date.
25th May.
marks the day of a new friendship.
a special bond which i can never forget.
the date whch totally change my life, change my everything.
because of that someone from the past.
the one who has been patient & sweet to me.
the one who has been there for me whenever i needed someone.
didnt matter be it day or night.
that person .. is like no other that my special friend.

Happy 1year Friendship, Friend.
it seems like just yesterday when we met before.
and now, we've gone through many shits together.
no one can ever descibe the feelins within me now.
im happy for you now since you're happy with your life.
& as i promised you, i will be there for you 24/7.
our ups & downs, we've been through together,
and yes, we will forever.
this i promised you.
thanks for everything.
thanks for the memories you've given me.

and till here then, take care my dearest friend.
im happy when you're happy the most. <33


i thank god for sending me an angel to wipe these tears from my eyes.


SHE'S THE ONE.


Sunday, May 20, 20072:37 pm
Said, Khai, Rita
the nightlife at clarke quay.


Khai, Fedz, Fyz.
a day going to pasir ris beach.



Syaza & Khai
my date at Changi Beach.


sorry for not updating a long time.
ok, ive just finished fighting with a lizard.
& i win. *woohoo* Saturday, May 19, 20078:17 pm would you still believe,
if i told you everyday im just staring at ur name hoping you to be online too ?

would you still hear my agony and pain,
as im crying out loud deep inside me trying to reach for you ?

would you still take my hand and hold it tight,
knowing that i will never let you go, EVER AGAIN.

would you still be there for me,
in times i need someone during my downs ?

would you turn to me,
if im running towards you ?

would you be happy for me,
during my ups and i needing you to hear everything n anything ?

would you hate me,
if i say I LOVE YOU to you ?

would you still ever gonna be my greatest partner again of all times ?

and will i ever be the one & only girl in your life ever again ?



somehow, i wish i could nudge you, like i do it everytime.
but now, it feels so weird to do that.
do you still hate me ?
i will do anything to change myself.
as long as u can accept me.
but please dont torture me like this.
its suffering enough for me & i cant take it anymore.
im longing to hear your voice again.
i longed to msg you, asking about hows stuff going on.
but after all that hurtful words you've shoot me with,
it feels funny to contact you.
tell me you miss me too.
and that its hurtful enough for you.
all i want us to be just normal friends now.
like the old good times.

ever the same. Tuesday, May 15, 20078:04 pm

You Are Gay

In your opinion, there's nothing sexier than your own sex. There's definitely nothing straight about you!

i dont believe this. i usually thought im a BISEXUAL. but this thing stated im a GAY. muahaha. okok. guess i have to admit im totally crooked.


living in pretendance is the best way.
but can i live up to it?
i have to pretend everything is fine even when it hurts?
i have been trying
but it seems like it isnt working.

i love you everyday
i miss you more everyday
but it still not yet complete
i just feel that its lacking from you.

i know you love me
but it is really true?
i hope so
no matter how bad i cried and screamed
its nothing cause i have to still be the one to make it better

how i wish we can be happy always
move on with life everyday with a smile
but it isnt coming instead its changing

i cant bear to lose you
not now ;
not later ;
not even in the future ;
cause you Mean alot to me

do you understand?
i want you to know,

i just so love you.


i miss you syg.
if only you knew how much i so treasure you.
but i will still be waiting & waiting for you.
baby, come back to me. Saturday, May 12, 200710:30 am i realised now what kind of person are you.
& it takes bloody 2 long years to knew it.
how can you just leave me hanging like this w/o knowing whats the reason of it ?
you leave me wondering what had it gone wrong to.
& you never knew it hurting me alot, didnt you ?
at least an explanation will helps me alot.
i need it, to keep focus on my work and studies.
you dont know just how down am i.
because you only CARES ABOUT YOURSELF.
but its okay.
i understand your postition right now.
you're having Os this year and i dunwan it to be a burden to you.
i want you to pass it with flying colours ok?
you've told me that you will, so make me proud.
be happy always and dont ever forget me.
cause i will never ever forget a guy like you.
and you're always welcome to talk to me as usual if you feel like you want to.
just dont leave me in silence like this.
i will be waiting for you.



anyways, thanks an for hearing me out last night.
i never knew who to turned to if it werent for you.
aku syg kau laa sey. (: Friday, May 11, 20079:54 pm its over.
everything is OVER.
i wanna cry my heart out right now.


And I dont know how to be fine when Im not
Cause I dont know how to make a feeling stop

This emptiness is killing me
And Im wondering why Ive waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
Im waiting here...been waiting here 7:24 pm ok, i didnt went to classes today as there were no classes. isnt it good ? heh. but i woke up early just to go to polyclinic & took an MC with fyza. we spend abt 2hrs in that poly. then we went to have our lunch & went to my working place to give my MC then go to sch for a photo meeting. it turns out to be a bad one as not many ppl attended the meetings.gahh. so then, after the meetings, we went back to tamp. fyza went back home while me, rita, said & fedah went to changi airport. they were super JAKON ler inside the bus when they saw policeman came checking up inside the bus. hah. and so we went to T2 and headed all the way to the canteen area. omg, rita & said were like hungry ghost can. they ate their food so silently and quickly.

suddenly i received this bluetooth from some unknown person name "PUSSYMAN". he kept giving me bluetooth and i kept rejecting it. and again, he gave me this time i accept it and it was this pic.


and i purposely 'reply' back by sending it back to him. then he send me this pic.


and i did the same thing, send that pic back to him. heh. and the last time he send me this pic.

hahah. but too bad all of us had to go off.
and it seems like we just anyhow accuse everyone who is that "PUSSYMAN" hah.
its so freaky la seyy. but fun. i like. heh.

ohh yes. so then i took a bus straight to home. and all the way was msg-ing Anwar cus he too had just finished playing soccer.
& i felt a cold shoulder from him though.
& i miss the OLD anwar.
honeyy, i miss you.



flames to dust lovers to friends,
why do all good things come to an end ?



ohh before i ended the day.
looks at this. focus on amrita's face !
JOKE OF THE DAY. =D


rita , fedah , fyza Thursday, May 10, 20079:40 pm





and so another early day i had ended class with.
then spend some time with shaddiq. wahahahah. he's sucha dumbass OK. then we just slack down at BK till abt nearly 5pm. after that both of us were argueing wether to take bus or train back home. as u know, i prefer buses more than trains. then shaddiq say " ok to be fair. we take train halfway to tamp then we take bus from there." & i was like " hahah. ok. but dun bluff your words eh." & so we took the train. heh. ok i know its kinda lame. LOL.

ohoh, i missing Anwar la seyy.





& i treasure this neoprintss, ALOT. Wednesday, May 09, 200710:11 pm


ohh ok. i just got back home. we finished classes at 5+. then all of us went to bedok and said with his brilliant idea suggest that we took 854 to go yishun. so there we were spending 1hr+ inside the bus. my neck is super cramp after i took a short nap. close eyes and open eyes again, yet im still at the yio chu kang. DOTS. & i really needed go pee by that time.
after that, meet up with syaza & rach at northpoint. ate dinner at Mac and walk2 around the mall. when we taking bus to go back home, bumped into Dy laa seyy. FINALLY. after a long long time, i finally saw that idiot girl again. oh, SHE LOOKS SO SEXY WITH HER SKIRT. HAHA ! sorry Dy. (:
took some silly pics and stupid Dy. she purposely deleted AN'S folder in my hp ! which means, i dun have anymore of An's pic ! ohh gosshh. i hate you laa seyy. HURMPH. so then i reached back home at 9.30pm. & im currently on the phone with that syazooo. ((:



Baby you can be tough.
Say enough is enough.
You can even be blunt.
Just do it with love.
Tell me I'm wrong.
That I'm coming on way too strong.
Don't think I'll be crushed.
Just do it with love. Tuesday, May 08, 200711:52 pm just a day without any calls or msg-es from you makes me miss you soo soo much.
gosshh. i never thought i could ever feel this way towards another person again,
ever since An had left & walked away from my life.
but you did, baby.
you show me the light of happiness again.
though we hardly met, yet i knew you could be the ONE for me.
i never had known that it was you all along.
you're the one who's been there right in front of me.
who has been my special buddy,
a best friend whos there for me emotionally, though not physically.
i know this is too soon. & im happy that you could understand how long i needed to move on from my other previous love life.
& youve been there for me, patiently sticking by through thick & thin.
whenever i was heartbrokened or hurt,
you're the one who gave me the self-confidence back again.
even before my Os up till now,
you're my closest guy friend i can ever have.
& i wish we could be best friends & lovers forever till the day i die.
KHAIRUL ANWAR, i dedicate this entry to you.
all the shits that we've been through,
thanks for being there for me, all the time.
& especially, thanks for everything.
i promise i will treasure you forever. ♥


i need you,
& you need me.
its all too plain to see.
& i will never let you go.
& i always love you so. <3 Monday, May 07, 20078:50 pm

ohoh, see that? its shows how ORGANIZED & STRICT my daddy is. hah. even my own personal comp, there is some rules & regulations. but who cares ? i did break some of the rules. hehe. & whenever i look at the signs, it just makes me laugh out loud la seyy. abah, abah. haha ! =D





at first, i thought i was the only one having that feeling. but when you told me that, im really happy. whole day, im thinking of you honey.
i love you.


If you could only see,
Your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
Forever yours I'll be,
Baby won't you come and take my pain awayyyyy. 10:08 am
Create your own Friend Test here


DO IT ! DO IT, PEOPLE ! Sunday, May 06, 20077:00 pm im having a high fever AGAIN. my ears are like burning hot la sey.
my throat are hurting me like hell.
i look so horrible. hurhur. maybe bcause im being such a workaholic and all i did was work, work, work.
my mom say " if you fall sick then you know"
and i reply back "alaah i wont la. im strong & i rarely fall sick one."
tu laa nurul ckp besar sgt. kan da kena. hais.
i want someone to pamper me can ?
KANDAAA where are you ??!


you're beautiful thats for sure,
never ever fade... Saturday, May 05, 20076:48 pm






okok, i know. didnt blogging for so long laa. heh. so, ydae, worked till 4pm. then meet syaza. she soo sweet kan. fetch me from work. haha ! love you Pork Chop. we ate at pastamania. then slacked at tm. then bumped into kifa and we went to the open plaza and sat there n fagged. OH, i nearly get caught for smoking for smoking if i were underage la seyy. hmph. then angel came down. then rach. & we watch the midnight movie "Jangan Pandang Belakang" which is super scarry. me & angel kept on screaming inside the theatre la hah. *maluu* then off we went back home.

and today, worked again from 9-2pm. oh oh finally theres a male mly colleague in cartel. *pheew* his name is Imran btw. yea, & we kinda click very fast in just a short while laa. heh.
ok, its 2.27am in the morning. ive just finished watching dvds of Hikmah. & im sleepy. *snores*



exchanging body heat,
in the passenger seat.... Thursday, May 03, 20071:23 pm ydae was the 2nd May.
oh HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to QS/QD !
we've been friends for 1 year now la seyy.
going celebrate with my classmate later tonight. (: Wednesday, May 02, 200710:40 am pertemuan ini, pertemuan terakhir.
bagi dua insan, yang sedang berkasih.


biar hitam sejarah hidupku.
namun aku tetap bertabah hati.
ku saling berkesal.
hati tak terlarat.
siapalah yang ingin penderitaan.


its seems like ydae i hear your voice.
i miss everything it were to be.
i hate everything thats done now.
your smile, your eyes, your beautiful face.
i miss it.
waiting for your sms-es, calls everytime.
hurting me.
im crying cus i miss you.
♥ you..