♫ Nuruuul (=
i tend to be serious at times,
non-serious most of the times.

Affiliates:

Huda Syaza Amalina Sharmila Fina Said Yati Farhan Firr Haikal PCC Nadia J Syuk Saifud Alam Jack Wankie Naqqy Hafiz Syazani Aaz Khairul Imran Elly Dy Mai Maiss Haikal Ain Dian The Every Sunday Classes

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have i told you i used to have a Birdie?
i love working at PCC more than ever
i like riding cause its fun fun.
i prefer to listen to what my heart told me so than listening to other ppl talkings
in other words im stubborn.
but most of the decisions i made is always the wrong one
im unusually PMS at the wrong time
i scold people for no reasons.
but deep inside im soft-hearted.
its true!
other than that
i love my brotherlurps more than ever
also not forgetting my girlfriends
and my family too
i hate accounting more than ever
which sucks and bores me to death.
im in love with cristiano ronaldo.
*drooling*
that soccer hottie from Portugal.
he rocks! woohooo!
i like to hang around basically
anywhere if u wanna bring me
i used to play soccer & netball,
but now, pancit!
i love durians.
im always craving for durians!
and last but not least, i love my Birdie alot!

Singlehood life is fun,
To be attached in a serious relationship is great.
"Love one another and you will be happy. It's as simple and as difficult as that."

Tuesday, January 30, 20078:49 pm
here are some random pics of me & nor taken just now. (:




ok. i just came back home.. met Nor just now at pp. had our lunch and walk walk there. we were joking about some old chang kee thingy -.- and my members all are the aunties2 there. HAH. so then slack at bk and study. went back home ard 8+ pm. ohh yea, i keep on seeing akhbar for goodness sake ! (:

ydae went out w dy. she was soo not in the mood la. we meet at afgan. had a drink at there then took a cab. went town at meet ida & ein. they were so funny laa. haa. oohh and someone kenal2 with ein seyy. HAHA.
so then me & dy went back to tamp lib to return some books there and she went off to inter to lepaks with nisha & frens.




im SUPER TIRED.
GAHH.


you can say anything you want to.
no stress cus i understand you.... Sunday, January 28, 20078:50 pm OMG. im chatting with agil now. and we're like talking about the past. and he KNOWS I HAD A CRUSH ON HIM LAST TIME. ARGHHH. Maluuuu. and he says he sorry for not acknowledging me cus he's chasing after another girl HAHA. what crapps. and he's telling me many many deepest secrets about himself. gosh. surprise surprise. ok. gone.
Friday, January 26, 20079:48 pm ok. FRIDAY. i went for one and a half class with my home clothes. then had a photoclub meeting which said force me to go and i had to be the assistant leader for biz sch. WTH. -.-"
after that went tamp with him.



meet had and we slacked at coffeebean. den came sidney(syaza) and we slacked at open plaza. played taitee and donkey. haaha. funny.
oh yea. we're inside the handicapped toilet and tooking pics when suddenly had accidentally press the video cam button and everything was videotaped. and OMG, my face was like super horny laa inside that video. and they were like non-stop laughing at my stupid face. GRR. AZA pls dun put it at your blog k ! hmmph. btw, dy ask me to go town slack w nisha and some others, but i guess i dun really want to..



so yea, we sent syaza to mrt. then me and had walked back to my place. we saw paul, and had was like running ard like mad trying to avoid him. and its was romantic laa. HAHA. me and her was walking in the rain, while listening to love songs and holding hands all that. LOL. then we slack at the bus stop near esso from 7+ to 9pm talking bout all our secrets and stories. its was fun. k. im tired. bye. 1:56 am


okayy this are some pics which have been taken jst now at cbtl.
celebrating dy's birthday. and i enjoy that night. (=

sorry huys, you had to tilt your head. hee.

Thursday, January 25, 20077:08 pm ok. its the 25th.
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY DY. (: (:

yeaa. i know you're legal to do anyth. so dun be too much of a clubber manic k.
actionn jek. HAA. (;


so yeaa. im going to coffee bean later ard 8pm with nisha, dy, syaza, sky and some others to celebrate dy's birthday.
i can see that nisha does like dy much from the way she wanna plan all this perfectly.
its so sweet kan. (:
so yea. others if you do wanna join us, come ASAP alright?
muacks ! Wednesday, January 24, 20071:34 am i think im gonna be SICK.
super stressed with upcoming tests, projects, friendship probs, loves, family and MONEY !

grr. Tuesday, January 23, 20074:59 pm ok. been unblogging for the past few days. someths just happens too fast.
you lost a fren bcos of an outsider who dont even mean anything to you, the fren whom you trusted all this just soo suddenly broken your trust. and you finally knew what she really thinks of you. all this while she has been thinking that im childish & self-centered. yea thanks. now i know whom i really am to you now. and dont worry. i aint contacting with the outsider anyways so im sure you would be happy. hais. and yea so thats all about it. there's nothg i wanna tell you for now from the bottom of my heart. take care ex-bestie.


and so.. ydae i went out with angel. guess who i saw ? KHIDHIR ! wahhahaha. all this while when i so wanna see him, i cant but when i didnt expect to see him, yes, i saw him in his super cute innocent irsyad uni. when he spotted me, i smiled at him and he quickly turned away. HAH. wth ? so kentalsss. then we bumped into huda. she was shopping at tm for pants ALONE. so since both of us had nowhere to go, we acc her to go bugis. and finally she got her pants. ( :



as for today, didnt go anywhere. went hosp to acc my mom for a check up then went back home. was on the phone with AN just now. damn. im so missing her la. and she &her girlfs are getting into a soo complicated situation. hee. k thats all.


honey why you calling me so late ? Sunday, January 21, 20075:59 pm ok. blogging abt last fri. went to sch as usual. but me, fiza n fina done someth honourable. WE SAVE THE MATS FROM BEING TRAPPED IN THE LIFT. then then, me, said, fiza, fina n fedah went to eastpt. slack there till aza n angel ask me went to meet them at tamp. meet up with dem, and i ask dy along too. played taitee, bluff and other games.
we played till we sweat. hah. dy sent me back home ard 11 but she went back to meet the others. nisha also come down. but i dndt get the chance to meet her. ok. so thats abt it for fri. the next day, went out w ain. then meet aza n sad at bugis. we then went back to tamp. saifud came down too. slack at cbtl till 10+ n i went for work from 11pm to 7am.


phew. its super tiring la. but fun, met rakinah(is that her name?), danial, farhan for the first time. we talk n talk n talk cus theres no customer and we do whatever we like. hah. then joseph baked us 2 pizzas. we ate it for our break. the 4 of us went back together. Thursday, January 18, 200711:53 pm today is a super tiring day. but i dun even know why i cant slp. hell.
wake up at 5+ or 6am. went school punctual for the first time.
then finish sch at 4pm. went swimming with my bro. its soo cool. hah !
then, went back to my aunt hs. dy ask me to meet her.
meet her near my place. went afgan. had dinner with her. we talk n talk n talk like never ending.
even when going home, im kinda reluctant to go. hais. ok. im being sooo emo now. yucks. haa.
went back ard 11. chat with huda on phone. and now currently online.
ok bye. goodnights. Tuesday, January 16, 20079:44 pm darimu
kutemukan hidupku
bagiku
kaulah cinta sejati



bila yang tertulis untukku
adalah yang terbaik untukmu
kan kujadikan kau kenangan
yang terindah dalam hidupku



namun takkan mudah bagiku
meninggalkan jejak hidupku
yang telah terukir abadi
sebagai kenangan yang terindah 10:28 am my conv with dy

Me: Dy..? are u irritated by me ?
Dy: Of course not, honey. What makes u think so ?
Me: i dunno. i just thot u are. are u okay ?
Dy: No. im not okayy. i just feel bad cus i always didnt make time for u.
Me: Its okay la. i understand bout ur tight schedule. i shudnt be so demanding to u..
Dy: thanks dear...

ok. then we planned to celebrate her bdae by going clubbing. but too bad. im still 17. saddening. gosh. Dy.. i hope i can make for u the best bday u ever received. if only i hadnt lost my bloody wallet.. i would.
kay.. go. 10:25 am i LOST my precious wallet.
grrrrrrr.

anyone seen it ?
pls return it to me k. =( Monday, January 15, 200711:35 pm Call me crazy.
Call me blind.
To still be suffering and stupid
After all this time.

Did i lose my L I F E to someone better
And does she love you like i do ?
You know i really really do.

So much i need to say.
Been lonely since the day.
The day you went away.
So sad but true.
For me there's only you.
Been crying since the day.
The day you went away.



DID I LOSE MY LIFE TO SOMEONE BETTER
AND DOES SHE LOVE YOU LIKE I DO, I DO.
YOU KNOW I REALLY REALLY DO... 10:15 pm ok fucks. i just stood up my meeting with Dy and we had to cancelled it just now.
D A M N. i so hate myself can ?? i wish i could just bang my head against the wall.
GRRR. we had a miscommunication & misunderstanging. and yea. bcos of that, we had to cancel to meet up. ishk !

its so fucking irritating la. she is always busy with her soccer training, sch, work and many others. and getting to meet her is like once in a lifetime. LOL.
hais. fish it laa. i wanna jump from the highest building and jump n jump again can ?



anyway, my dad called up Mr Cheo dis morning. cus i came to sch late and he wants a feedback from my tcher. and guess what ? LUCKY ME. my dad meeting up with Cheo this thurs. -.-"
nothing ever came right the way i wanted today. so fed up. k BYE. 12:24 am Dalam diam diam, kau sudah berpunya, tanpa aku menyedari semuanya.
Aku mendoakan agar kau bahagia bersama si dia insan yang ko suka.
Percintaan kita tak sampai ke mana setakat di bibir saja.
SAYANG. ko bina mahlagai dari airmata yang jatuh berderai di wajah sepiku.
Hancurnya hatiku, bisa tak terkata, terhumban rasa diriku...



hello ppl. today im like so tired can ? wake up at 8 to go to madrasah at irsyad till 1. went back home and tidy up room. slept like a log from 5 to 9. aunts and uncles came to my hs like some reunion. tidy up again after they left home. damn.



and yar. went to chalet from fri to sat night. torn there with huda, khai and nor. its a waste huda had to go home ard 3 or 4am. klau tak kecoh sak. somemore with that BEANIE guy. hahahha. we cycle in the middle of the night.. then had a girls talk in our room. and after huda left, BANG. all of us were super sleepy and slept all the way till 2pm. the next day then i started to get to know khai's bro and his fren. hang out. play ps2. went cycling. play taitee. as usual, i sucks in that and the rest of the boys keep making me shuffle those cards cos im always losing. haha.then we shared money to order mcd. and finally we had our bbq with khai's family members.
so yah. had fun times together with the peeps there. hudaaaa. we shall make our own orite ??



and lastly HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAHAI ! (KHAI)



ku cuba penjam mata tapi tak terlena.
kerana ku masih teringat padamu...
i miss DY. Wednesday, January 10, 20072:26 pm Benar dikau ku cinta,
setiap detik ku puja.
Kau selalu memerhatikanku sambil membelai rambutmu.
Belikan aku diari tulis setiap hari.



ok. i had a super long break from blogging.
currently at sch and im sitting beside hafsah and fina. hee.
last sun, the L5 without lange went ktv. we sing and drank and smoke and do many stupid stuffs. kissing, begginng on the kness and others. hahah.
then went back home. get scolded from my daddy.


went sch the next day.
sch was ok la. then me & fiza meet syaza at bugis after sch. we went bugis village then went to the lib. then i sent fiza to the bus stop. me & syaza went toa payoh after that. played pool. then we went to bishan to meet her mgr. went home at ard 8pm. damn. she still want me to PIERCED !



on tues, meet tini & her cousin, imran. went home together after sch with them. then me & imran went to mrt st to meet aza&had. after that imran went off. yea. he so hot. (=
me, aza and had went ljs. coincidentally, saw is, syuk and siti at ljs too.
then we went ikea. had our 2nd lunch there. its temptation ok. the food dere was delicious even though it isnt halal. heh. saw fazley ! hot la. then we went to pasir ris. they made me walk from inter to pr central just for a baguette. ishk. saw dyra btw. rushed home after that.
landed at 10pm.




i try to call you.
i try to msg you.
but you always seem to ignore me nowadays.
tell me why please.
you've always been the first in my life.
when i needed you, you have been there for me.
now, you're gone.
please.. come back to me.
imissyou. Thursday, January 04, 200710:59 am ok for now, i seriously dun have anything to blogg. even though many things have happened i learnt alot from the past but i just couldnt tell the whole world about it. the yr 2006 had been my wonderful yr for me. somehow, i learnt to let go of khidhir. haa. i can still rmb in the past, all the stupid but sweet stuffs we did to each other like keep giving missed calls, etc etc. And every day, i will be like waiting for him to contact me sometime after 4pm. hee. and yes.. i gave him my batik painting.. the one that is so precious to me but yet i rather give to the one i love than keeping it for myself. and he who sacrifices his sleeping time just to talk to me until 4am+ in the morning which he himself had never done that before. hais. ppl do ccrazy things when they are in love. and yea.. bcos of that.. i was heartbroken for awhile. thats when i started drinking and smoking. and when khidhir found out abt it, he was very outrageous and he did a very stupid stuffs. like msging me in an unknown no. claiming his a friend of khidir. and khidhir is very angry with wt shit i done. haa. he's cute and sweet in his own ways. and i admire his character bcos he didnt take advantage of girls and he treats girls nicely. that was why i can understand why many girls fall for him. and he had made me learnt a valuable lesson. never ever try to busted anyone. hee. only certain ppl noe about this. (:



so there and i was feeling hurt and broken for a few mths since khidir and me suddenly, i dunno why, just keep losing contact and keep contact and lose again. until the month of june when i started to get to know An. the one who make my dreams come true. the one who make a significant presence of herself in my life. the one whom i love dearly and the 1st ever bung i had fallen in love with. i can still rmb the time when i first get to know u. i added u in frenster n u added me in msn. n we're like talking n getting along very very very fine with each other. but i noe everything happen just too fast. im starting to have a crush on her and from there it blossom into LOVE. yes it is love. but too bad its just a one-sided love for me. bcos she just still love her ex more than ever. but even though its just a one-sided, i still treasure those moments u care for me. i love your hugs&kisses more than anything else. and the 1st time u ask me for a kiss, i wouldnt dare to kiss you. and u had to urge n urge me till now as i get bolder to do it. u let me learnt a valuable lesson too. be bold and confident. and remember the 1st song i dedicated to u? sometimes by britney spears. every lyrics of that song just explain to u why i keep running away from u, why i keep hiding from u and why im scared of u. its all bcos my inner self is actually bursting to hug you, to kiss you. and when we've finally done that, i still needed it more than ever. and im missing your hugs&kisses up till now. n yea. i rmb the 1st time we hang out together. and i keep forcing u not to smoke cus u smoke alot. and bcos of u smoking, i even try smoking. my stupid plan is just to make u stop smoking. cus if u love me, u wont ever smoke again cus i will follow ur path. but u still do. hmmph. (: those times being with you was very fun. in fact, if i can relive on it again, i wan it to keep on playing &playing and i will never get sick of u. we were once so close with each other. but now u rarely contact w me. i just hope we can get to be close w each other again as before.

and lastly not forgetting my great friends who have been there for me thru all the years or the ones whom i just met in 06. each and everyone of u are awesome. all of u are very unique to me in special ways. and im glad we're still frens after all this time.

to huda: you're the best fren i ever had. even though sometimes u act like a minah, u talk like a minah but still im loving u laa cacat. haa. we've been frens ever since sec1 in a madrasah. and i cant believe im now ur colleague and still a fren to u. and im glad we met cus u've been there for me no matter what time of the day u still do. only u knows me well among all my other friends and thats what i like about you.


to syaza: u ve been my very best friend too in sec days up till now. all the other changkatians frens i had rarely contact w me but u still stick by to me through the thick & thin. i love u for who you are. dun ever change urself k. with ur stupid lame jokes and ur stupid laughter and with ur stupid pranks always on me haa. the goodtimes we shared. the boys we chased after, the drinks both u and i love so much and the songs we keep stealing from each other. its all to fun for me. and ur the best person i love to hangout with. bcos u always offer me a stick and i never failed to reject it. idiot u. haaha. but i love u so so much. and stop being a playgirl u flat-chested butch. (:


to angel: she's the talkative person i know can ? the first time i met u, u can oredi talk to me like im some old friend. thats why we can get along well. haa. and ur sweet with ur cute voice but i simply hate it when u sing where'd you go. LOL. its always keep getting on my mind. and u teach me tips on make-ups, fashion and all the girly stuffs we do. keep on rocking la girl (:


to ain: even though u wont be reading this, i still wann dedicate it to you. ur the best partner for me to go out with and find jobs. hee. ohh yea. i will really try to save money for ur PSP k. soon ain, soon. be patient. hee. and u simply so blur n slow. thats what ppl loves about u. haa. i cant believe u like a guy who wore a baju kurung on grad night. but its fine la as long as ur happy with him it doesnt matter to me. (: stay slow and blur ain. hee.



to lange: ur the best to talk about my probs. and even though we seldom meet up, i know in our hearts we're very close w each other. hee. and i love your hair can ! its super nice. to syaza, u keep on matchmaking me and lange right ? haa. stop doing that laa. i dun mind ur joke but lange might. hehs. anyway hope to see more of u soon k. and pls be good frens back with syaza. i missed u guys getting well togther.(:



to my L5: u guys are my fav groupies la. i love hanging out w u guys cus whenever im feeling down u guys just ready to go down to meet me and cheer me up. gosh, aint that sweet ppl? yes. we grew up to become bad together. we learnt smoking, drinking, torning. and we even learnt how to become crooked. haa ! though i know all this are bad stuffs, but we'll soon get over it right ? and i hope we still grew up to become a better person together.


to my ITE mates: said, fiza,fina, rita, fedah.. u guys simply the best. u motivates me to come to sch more often and makes me become a more better student. and ur always there for me. u guys noe when im sad n down even though we just knew each other for awhile. and i can just discuss any probs i had with u guys. i love u many many (:


to syukur: thanks for being there for me. even though for just a short period of time. u knew my past all that and now u just knew me very well. hope we can still remain in touch w each other and i do wish to hangout w u again cus u rocks my socks ! (:


to matiin: i cant believe i still get to see u !! ur my pri sch crush+fren and still counting(as a fren la)its wow la. and pls get attached okay. dun anyhow make use of ur special thing to girls u barely knew. hehs. (: stay hot aite matiin.


to my colleagues: siti,nor, shaddiq, khai, fahmi and many many others.
even though i just knew u guys for a short while starting from march, but u guys are so nice to me. we can just gossip and talk abt gazali, joseph and any stupid ppl in our place. haa. and bcos of u guys i came back to work with u all again.. cus i miss u ppl alot. the ppl who always disturb me w/o fail. the ups & downs we went thru together. and shaddiq, pls cut hair pls. we want u to stay now to go. and fahmi, i really hope he has insaf. haa. cus i dunwanna quarrel again abt stupid stuffs. to siti, ur the best in organizing a get-together for us. and ur kecoh-ness always bring laughter to us. to nor, ur one of the ppl im close with at there. if its aint for u, i dunno who else to hang out with. to khai, the idiot matrep who keep calling me a minahrep and always pranking on me. stupid you but i still never hate u. i dunno why. haha. to umi, the person whom i can rely on to tell my family probs with. to tini, my future sch mate !! i can see u more often in sch now. yay ! to kakak, yeaa. we do look more like a sis. haa. and she knows me deep inside. to ibrahim, the one who keep baking good breads. will miss u since u going to tamp. and to the others whom ive not mentioned.. ur guys are also the best too. makes me happy whenever i came dwn to work or to hangout. (:


to my changkat frens: thanks for being there for me in the past. i still rmb u guys. dun think i never eh. esp to matus, pau, sharmila and sonam. though we no longer hangout, we still do update each other once while about hows life has been going. even though we always quarrel but we never had any hatred towards each other. and to rahim and azry..i missed u guys teasing me. though its irritating but its funn to see you guys puttinh a smile on my face. to agil and groups, u guys are just happy go lucky. love it. to dennis, cant believe im still contacting w u. haa. i love u before and i still do love u. but now as a fren of course. u were there for me when im sad. u cheer me up with ur smses and ur calls. and u even play soccer with me. haa. super cute den. den promise me we will always stay together aite. ever since i knew u in sec2, u had let me learnt a valuable lesson.. dun try to pplay timer! haa. to taslim, u are my biggest crush in sch u noe tht! and i love ur hair. ur curly wavy hair. haa. its soo cool. hope u and ur gang; ash,dan,ber haiqal, saufi are doing fine. to sophan, my tutor in sch! thanks for teaching me hee. i owe u a bigg one la. and i know watching the movie that time sucks. haa. and to everyone i know i hope u guys are happy wherever u are. (:


to ikea collegues: u guys are nice.. and mukhsin ur simply the best. pls stop being a flirt and stick to ur girl la k. haa. hope to see u soon again. it was funn in the bus. LOL. (:


to my cousins: im happy to have u all. sofia, ayu, shibah, aceh, didi, yati, wan, dil. u guys understand me. u seen me grew up all along. and we always do stuffs together. love u guys.


my siblings: mira& nazrul. even though kakak sometimes scold u. thats bcos i love. i dunwan u to follow my footsteps. mira, be a better role model for naz. naz, pls dun be a BANG too much. haha. ur a guy not a girl so stop being gembeng. and both of u, i always pray that u grow up to become a better person.(:


to my parents. mom& dad. im truly sad my mom had the tragedy. but i guess its good cus my mom have become my nicer to me. and dad, ur always concern abt me going back home late. i will try not to be so havoc that much k. gosh i just feel like crying now. ='(


to anwar: my best companion !! i heart u many la. we've always been there for each other.. u can talk to me abt girls and stuffs and i can talk to u bout guys ... in SOCCER ! haha. i still rmb the world cup match. u were there to accompany me watching it. and suddenly, u were slping. yea. thanks alot. haa. anwar, pls dun ever let go of our frenship. we've been frens for a yr and a half. hope we remain frens always. (: Wednesday, January 03, 200712:49 pm hello ppl. im going online for a short while only. been a busy holidays for me. im enjoying myself every seconds. and i guess im letting that person go.. if u really love a person, u shud learn to let her go right for her to be happy.. so im doing that now. hope that person will be happy always, but rmb, im always here for u if u ever need me k. and yea, i so miss my deli & ite ppl. muacks muacks muacks. and not forgetting the L5. angel's bdae is coming soon. i will try to be free to go out w u orite? and im transferring to airport in deli, but too bad the ppl i noe from airport has not been working there oredi. /: so there.. btw, my new yr resolution is to let that person i love to be happy always even though the person will not be with me anymore.. and also im trying to be more tamed now by not going out till too late or what.. ok then, hope u guys had a blast new year aite? take care. toodles !