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see that ? no matter how BLUR i am, i still have some intelligence. haa.
&& yea, im HUMOUROUS & EGO. hehe. so dun ever try to spoilt my ego-ness. 7:16 pm ok, i woke up late today. so went out from hm at 11am to meet with Pau but in the end she's the late one. she late by an HOUR. grrrr. && because of that, guees what ?
i got STALKED. by some mly man. eeew. thats like soo disgusting laa. this is how it happened.

was listening to my own songs when suddenly this man came up to me
him: hello adek, name saper ?
me: huh? err, Nurul. (& i continue to listen to my song & pretend not to notice him)
him: nurul, nurul skola maner ?
*ignoring him*
again, he asked.
me: ite simei. ( then i looked downwards & pretend not to hear anything again.)
him: boleh mintak no. nurul tak ?
*ignores him again*
he asked me again.
ignored him.
& again he asked.
me: No, Sorry. Org tgh tunggu kwn ah. Sorry.
he: alaa, boleh ahh.
*shake my head & ignored him*
he then walked off. i quickly sit at the small mac. the table has this woman with her small son.
a few mins later he came up again, tapped my back n gave me a piece of paper.
then he smiles & walked off.
i looked at it & there it was written his name, hp no & house no. !
OMG laa seyy.
& throughout the whole 1 hr of waiting for Pau, i saw him from the corner of my eyes.
he is still somewhere ard the interchange n still watching me closely.
im getting freakout, seriously.
i nearly wanna cry.
luckily Pau then came. i saw him again when we passed by though he was silently hiding behind a pillar.
*feeling the chill behind my neck*
& i quickly tell Pau to walk faster to TM before he could catch up with us.
it was really horrible. ive experience stuffs like this before, but never up till this bad laa.
& now, i think i have to take a diff route and change it always to go sch or went back home or i guess he will be stalking me again.
shitneesssssssssss.


so then me and pau went to Tm. then fyza came down n both two meet each other. heh.
we booked for pau's stupid spiderman tix and then went to eat at kfc. after that me & fyza went back sch. we slacked at cafe1 while im 'studying' there. heh. then we went for our PIE lesson which ended at 5. walked back to eastpt, ate at ljs then went back hm by taking bus from eastpt. im gonna change my route everytime now laa. hah. Sunday, April 29, 200711:30 pm ok, im super happy can?
i finally met Anwar la seyy. hah.
&& khidhir too. *dengs*
anwar is soooooooo CUTE. as in CUTE, not HOT or whatsoever.
yeah. hee.
kayy, im done for today.
bye hotstuffs. <33



u got me begging on my knees.
begging you to stay & dont go.
but in the end you did.
my begging isnt enough for you.
isnt it ? Saturday, April 28, 20074:20 pm ok, ite 4.20pm & ive just woke up. working last night at delifrance. & just my luck,i was the only girl there working with gazali, fahmi & shaddiq. and stupid fahmi being a pervert to a pain in the ass la. heh. but overall, yea it was fun. shaddiq is always asking me " are you ok?" cause he thought im pissed off with them. hah.so much happens during work & im lazy to blogg about it. and after work, me, fahmi & shaddiq went to the canteen since fahmi wanted to buy tauhuu (is that how its spelt?) then we went to Ntuc to shop shop for shaddiq's mom. LOL. & after we smoke, then we went back home. ohoh, im missing SKL smell la.



im working later AGAIN at cafe cartel.
gahhs, & im super tired la. Friday, April 27, 20078:45 pm Mengapa ada dusta.
Tika cinta melanda sukma.
Tika setia diombak resah.
Masihkah ada bahagia?

Mengapa ada DIA .
Tika rindu padamu saja.
Tika restu untukmu jua.
Akhirnya aku yang merana.

Mengapakah aku diluka.
Derita kerana sebuah cinta .
Yang sekian lama kita bina.
Inikah sumpah setiamu.
Terhadapku setia selalu.
Ke akhir hayatmu.
Ternyata PALSU.

Kuterima semua ini.
Sudah kehendak takdir Ilahi.
Berakhirlah semua kini.
Episod cinta ini.
Menjadi sebuah memori.


Dan jangan ada benci .
Tika kesal menggamit hati.
Tika segan menyentuh jiwa.
Anggaplah lumrah dunia. 2:02 am problems problems problems. have you ever felt like there are just too many probs you're facing right now all by yourself without anyone there to support you behind?
yes, im facing it right now. its hard though.
im in a dilemma currently. i needa chose between delifrance or cartel.
as you know, delif is a Halal place, so my parents werent be too "waswas" but the gaji is super low la. while cartel is a high class place with Unhalal stuffs there with a good salary. for me if i wanna choose between the envi, i cant say it now. cus i just started working.
yesyes, so please give me ur point of view on it, OK ?



another one, i guess friendship probs really took much time.
my friendship with her is still unsteady. yea.
we saw each other just now outside sch, but all we did was just ignoring each other.
she didnt even smile at me neither did i.
and seeing her just now really puts me up in a terrible mood.
i was like furiously smoking and inside my mind all im thinking about is her, her , her.
i was hoping she would be calling me tonight but no, she didnt.
& while im inside the bus all the way from sch to home, from home to work, from work to home, all ive been thinking about is our situation that day.
so yea, i hope she will ring me up soon. hopefully. im missing her alot.



another prob ;
liar. liar. liar. # *d¥¢Rª2É* # says:
u dont miss me. i hate you
liar. liar. liar. # *d¥¢Rª2É* # says:
you got new fren forget abt me
liar. liar. liar. # *d¥¢Rª2É* # says:
hate you hate you hate you
k h a i says:
where gt??
liar. liar. liar. # *d¥¢Rª2É* # says:
shuddup
liar. liar. liar. # *d¥¢Rª2É* # says:
bye

okayy, thats like super kiddy quarrels la, between my&Dy.
Dy, if you're reading this, ive never gotten any new friend.
in fact, whenever i have, i will tell you about her/him.
Patty dont take it too hard la.
ive just been kinda busy this few weeks.
maybe someday, i will meet you up again alright.
hearts you, IRRITATING PEST.



hopefully things will turn out well soon just like how well things in my sch are(:
&i love my schmates ALOT. Wednesday, April 25, 200711:20 pm




ok, i just got back home. another tiring day. *wiping forehead* i didne even attend any lessons in sch today, bcos of the photo exhibition held today. (=
came at 10am. i saw rinnoo wearing coat la seyy~
soo handsome. *ehem* *ehem* hee.
then then then i have to be so called the 'ribbon girl' which means when the guest of honour cut the ribbon i have to collect it under.-___-
rinnoo have to be briefer for the guest & said the photographer. fyza came down too to kpo2 here & there. heh. i think me, said & fyza are the laziest member ard there since the rest is entertaining other ppl while we're just sitting down at the table taking camwhoring. hee. after that, went for lunch, smokee, then came up. said was crapping all the way la k. hah. we end up at 4 then me & fyza skipped PIE just to slack at mlc and play the comp. then i went to my first day of work at 5pm.

goshh, im like super nervous about it la can.
i have to did many2 tasks in the first day and it was super tiring, OK.
there were many chinese except me & another girl name Nisa the only malay there i guess. but the ppl there are nice & friendly, esp Abar, another chi guy & the manager.
well, as usual there are some cocky ones but at the end of the day, they're friendly back. so yes, it went well for me today. hopefully it will do well too in this coming Sat. (:

ok, my leg is in super PAIN right now.
anybody can offer me to massage it ?
*smirks*



bye pretty dudes, handsome babes. <3 Monday, April 23, 200711:03 pm ok, i reached home today at 8pm. such a long day huh? i know. so it started again as i was late for my lecture class. came sch at 11 instead of 8. heh. then after our lecture we had our break. ate for lunch then me, said, hafsiee, azriee, niniie, nadiee went for a smoke. gossh. its like our daily routine now to smoke after eating. heh. then we slack ath the hallway there. & after that, rinnnoo suddenly called me up to ask me & said came down to help for our photo exhibition. so off we went skipping all the classes. heh. me, rinno, said, & another guy came down to help. soon, my classgirls came down too. such a kecoh-ness. hahaa. said so silly la sey. hah. cutee. he's soo scared of a lizard's pic. -__- hmmph. so then, the exhibition was done. heh. thanks to rinnoo =) 6:50 am i couldnt believe it.
ive let it go in just a short time.
everything is over.
just because ive made my decision to end it.


we've been uncontacting officially for a month now.
you let it go too.
you didnt try hard to fight back for me.
if only you're reading this post.
but i know you wouldnt because you wont ever be able to find my blog.
if only you know how im feeling right now, each & every day.
knowing that im waking up to the same old world, without you in my life anymore.
without you to care for me anymore.
& without myself to care for you anymore.
it hurts alot.


its hurting too right now as i didnt even know how you're doing.
are you doing fine without me?
are you facing any probs & crying inside silently ?
are you still going strong right now?
is there anybody who would understand your situation as much as i do?
have you ever thought of me right now, even for just a sec?
well, im sorry i have to leave you.
i need to move on. hard.


i found it hard myself to do this but i had to.
its for our own good.
even though we're no longer updating our life, yet im still trying my best to look upon you.
i wanna give you the best in everything.
i wanna make you the happiest person in the world.
i wanna be the one who takes away your tears and give you a smile on your face.
i wanna be the medicine to your problems.
& i wanna do everything anonymously for you.


babyy, its hurting me.
whenever i see you msg-es trying my best not to reply.
whenever i see you, trying my best not to look at you.
whenever you smile at me, trying my best not to look smile back.
whenevr you talk to me trying my best to ignore you.
whenever i touch you, trying my best not to hug you.
whenever i see those lips, trying my best not to stained it with mine.


im sorry i havent been telling you about my current life.
im sorry i havent been contacting you like how it used to be.
im sorry if you have found my blog, and you're reading this.
im sorry for all the mistakes ive caused you.
yet, youre still so forgiving towards me.
if only there's something i could do,
i wish we would have just stick on being strangers.
& im truly sorry if im acting like a stranger in front of you now...
all im wishing silently for you now is, be strong. Sunday, April 22, 20074:44 pm ive got the job. at cafe cartel. this wed. well, wish me lucks ppl. BYE. Saturday, April 21, 20078:43 am Menggigil tubuh ini
Melihat kau bersamanya
Tergamam aku tak terkata
Meraung di jiwa

Puas ku pertahankan
Cinta kita sejak dulu
Tapi sayang
Sikit pun tidak
Menghargai cintaku

Sia-sia saja,
Pengorbanan dan kesetiaanku ini.
Ku sangka kau permata,
Rupanya duri paling BERBISA.

Ku pasrah dan berdoa.
Semoga tabah jiwaku.
Tetapi bagaimana Nak ku lawan,
Jiwa yang siksa?

Ke mana arah hendak ku tuju?
Bila hatiku rindu padamu.
Hendakku cari tapi tak guna,
Kau bahagia dengan si dia .

Dikamar sepi aku termenung,
Terbayang bayang kenangan kita.
Tidak ku sangka kau Tergamak pergi
Saat ku masih perlukan mu.

Meraung di jiwa
Apalah daya kiranya
Orang dah benci.


Tapi tak pernah ku benci
Dirimu sayang 12:03 am ok, i went out just now. && i was OFFICIALLY LATE to meet hafsiee & saidiee at bugis just nw. heh. we went in search of hafsiee bag since she wanna goo bag-hunting. hah. after we walk & walk then we had our lunch at kfc. & chitchat again. then they went to bought their bags while i went to dhoby gaut to meet ain&nad at PS. after that, we went to Changi Airport. they went for intervw at deli & guess what ? they got the job ! hahaa. Congrats. may you be HAPPILY and LONG-LASTING work there. LOL. after that we had our dinner at the staff canteen. me & ain shared rojakk. heh. then we just roaming around airport after that went down to tamp. ohoh, i saw my HOT starbucks butch working seyy ! hahaa. she's so HOT. *droolings* ok, thats all for now.

bye people. <3


I couldn't eat.
I couldn't sleep.
You even made me feel like I could not breathe
when,
all I wanted to do was feel your touch.
and to give you all of my love.
but you took my love for granted.
want my lovin now.
but you cant have it. Thursday, April 19, 20078:04 pm ok, erm today started out quite good(: was late for Advance tutorial class but i went for the lecture with fina. then during break, went to toilet. ohhoh, i saw An laa seyy. after that have costing lecture again. then i passed an a letter ive wrote for her last night. && im super happy. she isnt angry with me. heh. but i noe though now we're in good terms already, we still have a long way to go before we became close again & rebuilt this friendship of ours. oh wells, hope everything will go fine from now on. then after sch, went back to tamp inter with fedss, nadiee, hafsiee, azriiee, & fifiiee. i called diqqy to meet me up at tamp since im buying a pressie for my mommy & none of them are free. diqqy came 1hr later since he was at dover & while im trying to kill time, i took bus 29 which went to changi village then went back again to tamp. how clever eh? heh. && diqqy have to wait for me bck. we went in search for my pressie and finally i bought a purse for my mom. then we went to ate at ljs. then chilled again till 7. finally shaddiq make me took bus 15 to pr. & i have to take bus back to my place. -___- oh im soo sleey & tired. but who cares. im not slping early. cus, IM NOT SCHOOLING TOMORROW. WEEE ! but ive no plans tml. HURHUR. anyone wanna have a date with me? ASK ME OUT QUICK QUICK !



I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you. 12:38 am ok, i forget to tell you guys abt school! guess whaat ? hahah, my classmate will knew already. we have a new malay guy classmate. and his name is Azri. && he's good-looking for an accounting student la. hah. yea. my mly classmates were going goo-goo-gaa-gaa over him la seyy. && i guess hafsah is crushing on him. feeeweeeeeeeet. hahah. but but too bad la. he's ............. ATTACHED. -___-
hah. but its ok. at least we pathetic girls can cuci mate in class also. HAAH. & said will surely be happy to have a new male friend. haha. so then, sch today was such a longgg day. i overslept till 7am when my class supposed to be on at 8am. quickly rushed to sch with fiza since she's overslept too. heh. then we bumped to fina. and the 3 of us quickly make our way to our advance acct class. then we had our elective. ETP was fun at first. we were playing this some rope games. and i made fina go down and up the rope till it pulls up her skirt. hah! funny laa.
then the next period, i was slping ! yes, hah. slping till the end of the class. ohoh, i hate the other classmates of us in ETP. those matrepss guys. pls la. they are such an ATTENTION SEEKER. i will never group with them, OK. so then we went for our break. its seriously seems that whenever we had some free time, we girls will be talking about azri, azri, azri. he seems to be the HOT and LATEST topic for now. heh. then we went for our Costing class. i saw An btw, outside our class sitting. hmm. && i tried to avoid her the whole day in sch. after that went smoking outside sch with said, nad, hafsah, ninin & azri. then me, hafsah n said went back to class for PIE. kiter kan budak baik. tak macam diorg. eheh. after sch meet up with my family and ate at Sakura for buffet dinner. oh, its my mom's BIRTHDAY !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA ! hee. so yea, thats all.



Let's not kill the karma
Let's not start a fight
It's now worth the drama
For a beautiful liar Wednesday, April 18, 200712:07 am oh ok. me& that someone had a big fight today bcos of some misunderstandings. but its not my fault ok. & i hate the other party. ohh fucks. thanks fiza for helping me(: && to you, im really sorry. i should have put more trust to you than blaming you. pls forgive me. & its up to you if you still wanna be my friend or not. i dun blame you for not wanting to, ok?


to ppl who have been SILENTLY reading my blog, get your own life will ya. this is MY personal blog. it isnt about some public issues so mind your own business. if you're not happy with it then GET LOST ! i just hate other parties !


ok, aini i hope you're feeling better soon. dont worry ok. may her soul rest in peace. but aini, pls takecare of yourself. dun be too stressed about it. im here for you, honey. Sunday, April 15, 20074:43 pm

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced. Overall, your true self is creative and expressive. With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react. In love, you seem mysterious and interesting. In stressful situations, you seem sad and helpless.

heh. ohwells, i have got nothing to do right now. go check yours too.(: 3:50 am ok, its 3.50am in the morning. i was awake at 3am thanks to the phonecall from that Dy lerr. She menyenyeh & complain to me until i was like fully awake laa. HURHUR. ohhmygoddamnit patty, you super irritating la sey. HAHA. ok since im blogging i might as well blog about this.


you're a nice friend to me. but to me, i only treated you just like a normal friend not more than that. im sorry if youve been thinking that ive been leading you on, but NO, i dont. i only cares for you like any other friends would. if all this while, you think ive been liking you & thats why im not attached then you're totally wrong. im not attached because i have somebody else on my mind. thats why im not interested in anyone but too bad for me cus the person is already taken. friend, everyone knows you're attached. & furthermore you have got a good family kind of girl there unlike me. im like totally opposite of what your girlf is. & i can tell she's really jealous abt you frequently keeping in touch with me. i dont mind us being in contact but if you have gone way overboard with our friendship, then i have to just ignore your phonecalls or msges soon. pls treasure the girl you have right now before she's gone. cus i wont be waiting for you but she will. and i dont wanna be a third party in your relationship too. im sorry i dont have the heart to tell you all this. but i hope you'll be bloghopping and happen to find out about my blog. so that you'll understand why i just want us to be neutral friends not more than that. well, i pray that you have a good relationship with your girl and may you love her as many many. takecare then.


for me, i wanna be single for now. & enjoy my single-hood like many singles out there. its sad for me to hear my friends r/s prob. some even wished they were single too. & somehow im glad too that im single & free. so to any of my friends who's single out there, ENJOY IT. mingle around with anyone while you can and you'll know the meaning of life(:


ok bye ppls. <3 Friday, April 13, 20074:37 pm ok, i have just finish doing my new blogskin. i have been wanting this kulit for so long la seyy. & i finally get it =D. ohh hell. frenster is being a cheeebyeeeeee right now. hmph. its still under maintenance from morning till now. oh wells., since right now i have got nothing to do, im disturbing fina in msn. hahah. & i think she's gonna be pissed off with me soon. LOL. jgn marah marah eh keentot. bagos tauu aku tgh bobal pasal kau nie skarg. sabar la kau dgnku. (:



& im seriously super bored laaa.
gahhhs.


so then i editted this post again.
went down to 7-11 to accomany Dy while she is working.
its soo cool la sey.
she's working all alone and the store is like hers gitu seyy.
&& i meet all sort of weird & regular customers just by hanging ard at the shop. haha.

my throat is pain-ing on my noww. cheeeeebyeeeeeee. heh.
sis is cooking sphagetti soon. *yumyum* ydae i didnt even eat anything except few pieces of nuggetss.

ok, ppl. the lyrics is meanigful. got it from a friend of mine's blog.
take a look at it.



You used to talk to me like i was the only one around.
You used to lean on me like the only other choice was falling down.
You used to walk with me like we had no where we needed to go.
Nice & slow to no place in particular.

I used to reach for you.
I got lost along the way.
I used to listen.
You always had the just right thing to say.
I used to follow you.
Never really cared where we would go.
Faster or slower to anywhere at all.

At least there's you.
And at least there's me.
Can we get this back ?
To how it used to be ? 12:53 am im so sorry if i have offended some ppl in my blog.
& i have never stopped you from tagging.
by all means, go ahead.
do you even know that by just a tag from you, i kept reading it over & over again.
even though its just a short & simple one, i still read every wordings of it carefully.
even with your short & simple sms/testimonials, i just kept reading it again.
dont even ask me why. you're the only one who can make me do stupid & silly stuffs.
so, if you're offended by what i said in my blog, PLEASE DONT.
read every words in the sentence properly.
realised that behind all those harsh stuffs i typed, the love is still there.
& i love you more than ever.
even if it does sounds too harsh, then im sorry.
im just trying to let everything out in one go.
you know i will NEVER EVER hurt my mostloved one.
even if i did that, i just wanna let go of everything.
i just cant take it in my stride anymore.
reminiscing everything, it just hurts alot.
im trying my best to forget you,
& all i want is for you to lead a happy life on your own with your loved ones.
i will always pray for your happiness & safetyness.
dont worry about me, i will be fine, soon im sure.
im worried more about you than myself.
pls try to CUT DOWN on your ciggs. & LESSEN your drinkings.
cus i dun wish to lose a PRECIOUS & SPECIAL friend like you.
and GO to school regularly. jgn besarkan materr ajer k.
so take care friend. & remember, you can always look me up when you need someone by your side. goodbye for now. but never forever. promised me that OK?



Nurul Miss Hammie. ALOTTT.





takkan ku biarkan kau menangis,
takkan ku biarkan kau terkikis.
terluka perasaan oleh semua ucapanku.
maafkanlah semua sikap kasarku,
bukan maksud untuk melukaimu. Thursday, April 12, 20077:37 pm I'm over you asking me
When you know I'm not okay.
You call me and I...
And I pick up the phone.
And though you've been telling me, I know you're not alone


Your eyes... I'm over it.
Your smile... I'm over it.
Realized... I'm over it.


Wanting you to be wanting me.
No, that ain't no way to be.
How I feel.
Read my lips.
Because I'm so over..
Im so sorry.



Moving on
It is my time.
You never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first a little bit
But now I'm so over
I'm so over it...


I'm over your hands
And I'm over your mouth
Trying to drag me down
And fill me with self doubt


Ohhhhh, and that's why
Your world, I'm over it
So sure, I'm over it
I'm not your girl, I'm over it 8:47 am urghh. im going down with a flu i guess. anytime now i will be vomitting soon. & guess what? i slept till 6am. how early can i wake up huh. ishkk. my sickness is getting worse. im stressed abt many stuffs, sch is starting soon & now im down with flu. i hate it laa. grr.

well, be back later ppl. i need to rest n puke again.


please dont say HELLO if you meant to say GOODBYE soon. Wednesday, April 11, 20078:50 pm ok, im currently at syazoo house with rach & herself. we're watching the danceshow right now. & syaza is like soo stressed cus she finding some missing parts of her PS2. heh. ok, im stressing now cus my own comp's keyboard is spoilt. HURHUR.

school is approaching soon. i dun wish to go sch. it reminds me of so many past.& i hate itt laa. but hols sucks too. believe that ive broke record & stayed at home for a week already ? heh. now i cant take it laa. with my parent nyer nagging smuer. all ive been doing is just locking myself up in my room and just stoned there. hmmph.maybe for now i will go sch just to study come back home, locked myself in my room & do my own stuffs from now on. im sorry if i will be MIA-ing for quite a long time ppl. i dont even have any motivation even to wake up right now. each day just sucks for me.


i thanks Lgang for being so understanding about me. soon i will hangout again with you all soon OK. but for now maybe not. & to huda for being there for me too. i love you babe. (:



ok, bye.


kau hilang bila ku tiba,
kau datang bila ku kecewa...


jika benar cinta itu buta,
butakan mataku.
berkali terluka masih jua,
ku merindu... Sunday, April 08, 20073:21 pm someday we'll know why our 10 months of friendship just went wrong.
someday we'll know maybe this happens for a good cause.
for you, i do anything.
i tried to be closer to you just like before.
but it seems the more i tried, the more we had become distant.
is it me or is it fate ?
or is it the fact that you're trying, really trying to avoid me ?
because of what ?
just because you're taken ?
just because you're still feeling guilty over the fact what happened that night ?




things have really change.
u used to call me up or sms me.
but now there's no longer the sound of my beeping from you.
we used to talk on phone all night long.
but now there's just nothing much for us to talk about.
i hate everything the way it is now.
from u having that special someone to being me&you just a plain distant friend now.


you know i still be there right beside you whenever you need me
but instead, you just push me aside.
dont you ever wanna be with me anymore ?
i tried to make things better for us but yet you make it worst.
every night i think about you.
i cried for you.
i smiled when i think back about all the memories about us.
i longed for everything to be the same again.
but i guess things will never be the same again.


each day in every hour, i felt like im losing you bit by bit.
you dont know how sad it is for me.
im feeling just too awkward n wierd to call you up now.
because you have never tried to keep in touch with me once ever since the misunderstandings between us.
even at times when i tried to sms you, i just erase whatever message that was supposed to be sent to you and cancel it.


i really regret everything that has happened now.
im really sorry if i hurt you in some ways or another.
but you dont know how hurting it is for me for the past previous months.


now, i know you have a good life.
with your friends, family & your lover.
& i hope i will have a good life with mine too.
maybe our friendship wasnt meant to be last forever.
but the memories we shared & the photos we had will forever be close to my heart and to be there to help me remember about our past.
but it will be sadly for me if you dont even remember or cherished whatever we had before and deleted our pics.
you were & will always be my closest girlfriend without anyone able to replace you.


remember that long time ago when i told you "i love you for who you are" ?
well, i guess you're a different person but no matter what, i still love you.
cause i knew right from the beginning you have got a good heart and i love you inside and outside.
& if you ever need anyone by your side in anytime of the day, just ring me along.
whenever you need me to.


i will be waiting for you until the day come when we will be as close as before back.
but for now, goodbye my friend. my very precious friend. Wednesday, April 04, 20076:46 pm ok, working just now with aisyah, auntie shirley, brandon, taat and this auntie from CS. heh. she funny la. keep asking me to go tranfer to CS. hahaa. ohh yea, then then KHIDHIR CAME PASSING BY. omg, HUDA this isnt some dream OK.i really did saw him ! actual fact is he look gorgeous with his black jacket and his messy surfer-style hair. heh. i bet he might be laughing looking at me as i looked so SHOCKED la. terperanjat la nampak dier. saper tak seyy. hmm, well then i slacked at airport till 12.15am. then rushed back to get the last bus home.


this song has always reminds me of khidhir.
from me to that sweet guy.(:

Too long, Too late.
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance, Just one breath
Just in case theres just one left
Cause you know,

That I love you.
I have loved you all along.
And I miss you.
Been far away for far too long.
I keep dreaming youll be with me
and youll never go
Stop breathing if
I dont see you anymore

With you, I withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I give it all
I give for us
Give anything but I wont give up


haaha. nice kan? well dats last time laa. LOL. Monday, April 02, 200711:56 pm those silly bunch of boys.

we're some KUKUs. heh.

i miss them laa. sweets. 11:23 pm weeee. okay, i just finished watching HIKMAH. goshh, i just hate the Eva character. hmpph. geram ajer sey tgk dier. oh yea, before that i woke up at around 8am in the morning thanks to PAU for keep calling me. she make me wake up at 8am just to meet her under my void deck at 10am. grr. so then we meet up at my void deck, then went to inter meet sharmila & matus. gahhs. i miss the bunch of crappiness. heh. we went back to our old sch which is changkat changi sec and walk walk around there disturbing other students and pretending to be some teachers just because we're wearing our home clothes. how lame is that huh ? heh. dari dulu sampai skrang kacau budak2 jer. heh. after that, went to eastpoint and ate at ljs. goosh there's just soo many many things we're trying to catch up with. from our relationships to our studies to our schools and to our old and new friends. hah. then we meet up with halim&gang. ashraf is soo cute laa. look so chubby as ever ! haha. but too bad he going home early. so halim, haiqal, nawas and afnan followed us to tamp. syaza and rach then came down to meet up. walk walk around there then we went to take some neoprints. AWW. they soo adorable la. heh. then we teman them to eat pratas while we sat there and just joke and took more photos from our phone. kuku haikal, tak abis2 kacau org. always shooting ice at me. HUR. then syaza& rach wanna ate at pastamania so we acc them. after that halim&gang went back home & we took bus 38 to go eastpoint. ohoh, syaza & rach bought a new pet its a HAMSTER. a fat&lazy male hamster which they had officially turned it into a GAY by calling him AHSOH. hah. but still, i insist in calling it ABU since its my godson. heh. YAY, i have a smallest son in the world. then rach had to went off, me & aza stayed there and pool-ed. for the first few games, aza keep winning me but after that i WON HER. believe it ? heh. then nisha met us & we went to have dinner. walk2 around again and then we quickly rushed back home just for the show Hikmah. hahs. okayy, so yea thats all for today. *yawns* im super tired. but still, i cant be able to go to slp early no matter how early i woke up. guess im having INSOMNIA. I NEED SOME SLEEPING PILLS !
k go.




i still hear your voice when you sleep next to me.
i still feel your touch in my dreams.
forgive me my weakness but i dont know why.
without you its hard to survive.