♫ Nuruuul (=
i tend to be serious at times,
non-serious most of the times.

Affiliates:

Huda Syaza Amalina Sharmila Fina Said Yati Farhan Firr Haikal PCC Nadia J Syuk Saifud Alam Jack Wankie Naqqy Hafiz Syazani Aaz Khairul Imran Elly Dy Mai Maiss Haikal Ain Dian The Every Sunday Classes

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have i told you i used to have a Birdie?
i love working at PCC more than ever
i like riding cause its fun fun.
i prefer to listen to what my heart told me so than listening to other ppl talkings
in other words im stubborn.
but most of the decisions i made is always the wrong one
im unusually PMS at the wrong time
i scold people for no reasons.
but deep inside im soft-hearted.
its true!
other than that
i love my brotherlurps more than ever
also not forgetting my girlfriends
and my family too
i hate accounting more than ever
which sucks and bores me to death.
im in love with cristiano ronaldo.
*drooling*
that soccer hottie from Portugal.
he rocks! woohooo!
i like to hang around basically
anywhere if u wanna bring me
i used to play soccer & netball,
but now, pancit!
i love durians.
im always craving for durians!
and last but not least, i love my Birdie alot!

Singlehood life is fun,
To be attached in a serious relationship is great.
"Love one another and you will be happy. It's as simple and as difficult as that."

Thursday, August 02, 20072:38 am have you ever seen a loner walking alone all day through sch all outside without any friends?
do you feel the loneliness they are feeling?
or what had gone wrong and thats why they were left alone?
its really sad to see them being a loner.
nobody wants to be that way.
what would we feel if we were in their shoes?

and i now, i have a confession to make.
last time i was an evil and bad person.
believe me.
i took away the happiness of my own close friend.
i took away the bonds and friendship she had with others.
and i shut the door of socializing for her and till now, i think she can still feel the pain of it.

it all happens two years ago.
somehow, when im with my clique of friends,
i always seem to be the one making decision for them.
and they will always agree to it.
ive always been the centre of attention in them.
and thats what makes me become arrogant and big-headed.

and once i quarrelled with this particular friend in my clique.
she is a close friend of mine once.
it was a very bad quarrelled, whats more with other parties,
some influencing me tell me of diff kinda stories of how bad is she and etc.
and partly, also, i admit, i was jealous of her before.
because to me, she's pretty.
and because of all that rumours and stuffs,
i made her become a 'villain'.
everyone of my cliques hated her.
therefore, we left her being a loner everytime.

i know it really hit hard on her.
her granny just past away sometime on that year,
all of us were sitting for our Os,
and i make it hard for her like as if 'life is a hell'.
ever since then we had severed our friendship.
when we see each other, all we do is just act like strangers.
at first i was happy seeing all that.
(gosh, can u believe how bad am i?)
but soon, after that year,
i did try to do some talkings to her on msn.
there is some awkwardness, but maybe we pretend as if nothg happened.
sometime this year when i meet up with her,
i was secretly shocked.
she totally looked like she's a lost girl without confidence,
a girl whos been badly hurt emotionally and physically,
a girl whos happiness been taken away in a split seconds,
a girl without anyone to trust with.

and thats when i realised ive make a greatest mistake.
ive done so many sins within 2yrs by doing all that to her,
and up till now, she's still affected by it.
ive realised, regret and learnt about it.
because of that, i hate seeing friends backstabing each other,
or avoiding them.
all of you just pretend we're in their shoes, it sucks for us too right?
my friend has really make me learn about how precious friendship and love is;
and what a big and kind heart she has.
because after everything that has happened, we're still friends.
but up till these days, i still regretted everything that has happened.
it makes me feel very bad and its even harder to believe, im so cruel.
i do had a blackiest heart somehow.
and its hard for me to forgive myself either, for whatever happened to you,
because i knew its all because of me and my attitude.

from the bottom of my heart, i thank you for everything you had done,
and i truly apologise for everything i done since the last 2yrs,
take care and be happy always, friend,
SHARMILA BTE JAMALUDDIN. ((: